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Friday, July 16th, 2004
4:16 pm
Yay Batman

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Tuesday, February 24th, 2004
11:54 am - Oh so earth shattering
Top ten things you'll see people say in their livejournal entries (Summarized format of course)

1. I am so depressed
2. I am so depressed
3. I did exciting things today, like breathe and blink
4. I am so depressed
5. Wah I am so depressed
6. Why won't girls/guys like me?
7. I am so depressed
8. I am so depressed
9. I am so depressed
10. I am so depressed

current mood: Depressed of course!

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Thursday, January 1st, 2004
1:10 pm - HAOOY

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Sunday, September 21st, 2003
11:53 pm - And many more...
I feel for Ted

And no, this isn't the big update, that will come later.

P.S. Those are my initials

current mood: calm

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Wednesday, September 17th, 2003
3:12 am - Big update coming up!!
I just thought I'd let you all know that:

1) See topic

2) Why did I make a list for this

3) That is all

4) P.S. Those are my initials

current mood: accomplished

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Wednesday, September 10th, 2003
5:04 pm - I'm singing in the rain~~~
I dunno if you know (you probably don't, whoever you are) but Vancouver just went through one of the craziest dry spells ever, I think we went without a decent rain for over 3 months, which is totally unusual for this city. Anyway, the point to all of this inane babbling is that IT IS RAINING, VANCOUVER STYLE!!!! Man how I missed the rain. But anyway this isn't going to be a post about the weather... ok well yes it is, and yes I am that lame. The real point is that I walked in the rain wearing a t-shirt since I left my jacket in Arkansas. And I loved it. A lot. And I got splashed by a car, and I loved that too. A lot. I am crazy, I am free, I am hyper, I am bored and I am really, really feeling alive right now. My advice for the day, go take a long walk in the rain, and just think.

P.S. Those are my initials

current mood: amused

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11:44 am - I miss my dog
Life is finally starting to get back on track for my family and recently the only thing I find myself thinking about is how it is total bullshit that Axle isn't here struggling and fighting with us. I hate the fact that he is not around to see how we are rebounding from the disasters that hit this family. I just get so filled with sadness and anger about the whole thing and well, I just plain miss my friend. Having him around in even the worst of times could make me smile and I think that is what I miss the most right now. I should be happy right now, and I am, but I always get these stupid bouts of overwhelming sadness. Yet there is still much to be done, and all we can do is hold on to Axle's memory and draw strength from it. Axle I love you my friend, and thanks for helping to show me what real courage is all about.

P.S. Those are my initials

current mood: thankful

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Friday, September 5th, 2003
8:16 pm - Boy it feels good to be a gangsta
Hooray, my family is finally back in the game. We finally got ourselves a business, though it isn't much of one right now. But still, the price was right! I've spent the last two days running around working my ass off trying to get this bakery we've bought into some sort of organized structure. I'm running wild right now after getting only about 2 hours of sleep after working for 16 hours yesterday. And I just finished working another 16 hours today, hee. Thank God for Coke, thanks God!!! Yey, it feels nice to be working in a horrible, disorganized place filled with liars and thieves, my family feels alive again after so long, even if we do have to put in insane hours to begin with. This is the stuff that makes life so much fun. Just blitzing everything, getting no sleep and not eating, and running on pure adrenaline. I can't wait to own my own game company and spend 72 hour shifts getting stuff done with my team. Yup, this thar be da life.

P.S. Those are my initials

P.P.S. Happy birthday Court

current mood: hyper

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Saturday, August 30th, 2003
5:46 am - Tired and Sleepy and Exhausted and Bored
Yeah so here I am, still awake at 5:50 in the morning when I have stuff to do the following morning. Here are recent revelations I have had:

1) I was right to be honest about my feelings for Courtney way back in 2001

2) Livejournals are so retarded

3) I am posting on a livejournal

4) Therefore, I am retarded

5) Keeping #2 in mind, I don't ever want to post a serious entry on livejournal, which is kind of the reason why I never get around to writing anything since writing nonsense is easy and if I did it all the time my livejournal would be shallow and empty!!!! Then again.......

6) This is my sixth not so revelation, revelation.

7) I need to work on a personal page so I can post my real thoughts on stuff and also post bullshit

8) I will be stopping at 10 revelations

9) I lied

P.S. Those are my initials

P.P.S. It is funny how two weeks can wash away years of self doubt and misery

P.P.P.S. I don't think "P.P.P.S." is real, but anyways I like Scrubs, it is great, watch it. Now.

Special note for Palidor: A local cable station here will be getting Six Feet Under Starting tomorrow (Sunday) O M G

current mood: tired

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Tuesday, May 27th, 2003
9:39 am - This should have been posted a week ago
"It's like wiping your ass with silk, I love it."

I'd like to wipe my ass with silk too, wouldn't you? I wanted to update this stupid journal a week ago, man a lot was on my mind and now it is lost in the myriad of thoughts that make up my consciousness. I'm going to try and sound pedantic and pretentious in this opening paragraph simply because it is within my abilities to do so. Lets see how long I can talk without really speaking much of anything shall we? I've always found that flowery language used in overabundance can make a person look like an ass and even seem like somewhat of an egoist. I mean, when there is a much simpler way of saying things, why not say it that way? I think that's a question you kids should ask your university English professors, you know the type. The one that wears a buttoned up solid color silk shirt, perfectly pleated trousers preferably a dark color, a wool sweater knitted in the foothills of the Himalayan mountains covers his aforementioned shirt, his spectacles; thicker rimmed than most, scream out to the world "I am an intellectual", and lets not forget his socks, given to him by his mother on his 35th birthday and his shoes 100% italian leather forged in the fires of mount doom complete the package. You know of whom I speak, he is evil, he is mighty, he is Mr. Doogie Howser M.D.

P.S. Those are my initials

P.P.S. This isn't the real entry

current mood: high

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Saturday, May 10th, 2003
6:26 am - A lot on my mind
"The box! The box!!"

Yeah so I dunno where to begin. I've wanted to update this journal a lot more frequently than I have, but I have this bad habit. It's a habit where I don't do anything for stretches of time, and it's really hindering to actually living a life! Hmm, maybe I'll actually write a reflective entry for once. It's funny, I usually have so much to say, but when it comes to actually putting it into writing, I always do anything I can to not write. And then when I actually do write, it comes out in spurts. I guess that's a really bad habit to have, doing things in spurts I mean. It's better to be constantly doing something if you ask me. I suppose I have to work on that. But I digress, let me actually talk about some things that are actually on my mind.

Hockey and what it means to me
I was born and raised in Edmonton for the first 10 years of my life. That means I grew up watching one of the greatest dynasties in NHL history. I got to grow up with the Edmonton Oilers winning the Stanley Cup 5 out of 7 years. And I can only describe watching the Oilers in the 80s as simply astounding. I've been a hockey fan as long as I can remember, hell most Canadians are. We take a certain pride in hockey, we invented the game (which is debatable) but what is for certain is that we put hockey on the map, and we're damn proud of it. Last year Canada took the gold in a decisive victory over the United States in the Olympics. Canada cheered and cried, we were once again on top of the hockey world, and Canadians everywhere were so proud, and that includes me. Watching my country's team win the gold medal was very inspiring and wonderful, it was something the entire country could rally behind and enjoy together in unison. Gone were our petty squabbles for a moment in time, during that gold medal run, Canada stood as one.

Hockey is really the only sport I can get emotionally involved in, I don't know why, and I don't really care, all I know is that I love the sport and sometimes wonder why I never got involved in it personally. Any ways what I am trying to get at is how the Vancouver Canucks did this year in the playoffs. The Canucks came very close to winning the cup in 1982 and 1994 making it to the finals in both years. The 82 team was more of a fluke, and at that time I was too busy being a 2 year old cheering for the Oilers. But my love for the Canucks has been strong for well over 12 years now. I watched a team of grinders make it to the finals in 1994 and come oh so close to clinching the championship, ultimately the team lost in game 7 to the New York Rangers. After the loss, Vancouver fans showed just how childish and pathetic they were, they rioted downtown causing mayhem and destruction. It was absolutely disgraceful, and only made our loss seem shameful, when we should have been proud. That loss in game 7 of the finals, that was the biggest disappointment in Canucks history, until two nights ago.

The Canucks have been in a rebuilding phase for the last 5 or 6 years, they finally got a core of players they could build around a few years ago and have been steadily improving. This year they set a club record of 104 points in a season and were ready to put the past disappointments behind them and get ready to make a run for the cup. The Canucks faced some early adversity in the first round being down 3 games to 1 against the St. Louis Blues, a very powerful and veteran team that has also had its share of disappointments. They overcame the 3-1 one deficit and won the series in 7. The entire city cheered and was so proud of our team, they showed character coming back from such adversity, and we were ready to make a run.

To make a long story short, a lot of the most powerful teams in the NHL fell to lower seeded teams in the first and second round and the Canucks had what seemed to be an easy road to the cup finals. But we lost, in game 7 of the second round, after being ahead of our opponents, the Minnesota Wild, 3 games to 1. Our team had squandered a 3-1 series lead and in a flash, all the achievements and great milestones for the team, and some of our players, meant nothing. Well, ok not nothing, but pretty much. After seeing my team lose in the 7th game two nights ago, I felt crushed. I wanted to cry. And I wasn't alone. It seemed like the entire city was mourning the loss of a loved one, and in a way, we were. The Canucks have never won a Stanley Cup, they've never been allowed to have those wonderful parades where everyone goes out to see the holy grail of sports championships.

Yeah it's just a game, and I'll get over the loss. But seeing how hurt the players were for blowing a lead like they had, and being such a huge fan of not just the Canucks, but the game of hockey as a whole, I have to say, this hurts like hell. I loved growing up and watching the Oiler's bring home the cup, but my heart belongs here, in Vancouver now. I absolutely adore this city, I want to always live here, it is a simply glorious place to live, and I hope that one of the things the city is most proud of, our hockey team, can learn from this experience, and come back with a vengeance, because we deserve a cup, and we're damn well capable of winning one. But I can't help but think that all this pressure the city puts on the players will hamper the team's efforts to win. Ask anyone, Vancouver fans are ruthless and we bitch like little babies when we don't get our way. We're a spoiled city sometimes, and it shows, just like it did back in 1994. I don't even know what I'm trying to say. I guess only a hockey fan that's gone through something like this (and there are plenty!!!) would know what I'm talking about.

I'm saddened and heartbroken, and I'm sure there are hundred's of thousands of people in this city who are feeling exactly what I am. But I'm never going to give up on this team and I hope the rest of the city doesn't either. We'll bounce back from this for next season stronger and wiser, just like the Oilers had to back in 1983... before winning 5 championships.

Reflections of myself
It's funny, I spend a lot of time thinking about myself, and the past, but not really doing anything with the thoughts I have. What I mean is that I think about it, but don't really get anything out of it. Make sense? Didn't think so. Or maybe I just glaze over it, I dunno.

I think about a lot of things, but what saddens me the most is that I don't look on my past with fondness, I look back on it with a mixture of sadness, regret, and contempt. I don't know about you, but I think that's a terrible way to look at one's past. It would be simple if I just said that there was no good to be found in my past, but that's a total lie. And I think for just about anyone else to who looks on their past with similar feelings it is a lie too. It is ridiculous for me to feel sorry for myself when I have been blessed with the ability to shape my own future the way I see fit. Yet I can't seem to shake those kinds of feelings. I know better, but I don't do better. I suppose that's a flaw of all humankind, but really, we should do better. Easier said than done? Of course.

If I were to list some of my biggest regrets in life, the list would look something like this:

1) Not getting involved in sports when I was younger, especially hockey, and my year of soccer doesn't count
2) Not learning to play a musical instrument
3) Quitting tae kwon do at age 15
4) Isolating myself from my friends and family, especially my parents and brother
5) Not taking my studies seriously in school
6) Continually starting to workout, and then stopping

Now here's the thing. 5 out of those 6 things, I can still do something about. Numbers 2-6 can be done any time really. Number 1 would be kind of hard to do especially hockey, but honestly that's the least of my regrets. I still have the desire to learn an instrument, and I can learn. Of course I can still take martial arts classes. I am still the intelligent person I have always been, I can do well in school and enjoy it. Working out? That will take simple discipline, but it can be done. Of the list, number 4 would be my hardest to work on, by far.

I look back on myself now and looking at it objectively, I can see that the seeds of my isolationist habits were planted very early in my life. I started playing video games, which can be either social or nonsocial, at the very early age of 3. Things weren't so bad until about age 12. That's when I started using games as an escape from all the crap in my life. And you know that isn't so bad, but sometimes it can get out of hand is all. I think things completely deteriorated between ages 16-18. Not coincidentally, that was roughly a year after I first got access to the internet at home, back in 1995.

Things were going really, really bad in school from about grade 8 till grade 11. And that's when I started becoming more isolated from everyone and everything. I started spending more and more time alone in my room (a habit I still carry to this day, almost 7 years later), and spending more and more time on my computer, as I still do today. Don't get me wrong, I'm not trying to blame the games, or the computer or the internet or anything else people like to blame for their problems. I'm just simply trying to analyze things as I look back on them.

Moving from Edmonton to Vancouver wasn't an easy transition for me, at all. I made some really great friends in grade 5, but then we moved again in and I went to a new school in grade 6, that was a turning point in my life, which is pretty laughable if you ask me. It's funny, my family has been so unstable in where we live. My brother and I have counted at least 10 different places we have lived in the past 10 years. That's fucking insane. Anyways I made what I had thought to be good friends in grade 6, and they were, until junior high. It's kind of funny now that I think about it. The main reason we became friends is because we were all rejected by everyone else. Sometimes that'll work, but it won't work at all when some of the people that were rejected have a strong urge to want to be accepted, you know by the "cool" kids. Man what a stupid concept.

Anyways, my friends turned out to be snakes, and not the cool kind of snakes in the metal gear games. That really hurt, being not only ditched by my friends, but subsequently picked on by them!! Kind of funny how since I refused to turn to drugs and hang out with total losers just to fit in, that I was ostracized by them, but that's what happened and it pisses me off. I think I have the right to be pissed, right?

I find it amusing how the things that really bothered me back then, wouldn't even dent me if they were said to me today. I guess that's part of being a kid and growing up. Its really easy to say "well you shouldn't have let that bother you", and that's true, but look at everything in the context in which they happened. I think that's a key element a lot of people who say being teased in school shouldn't bother someone, seem to neglect. But I wasn't just teased, sometimes it became physical, that's the worst part, and that really pisses me off. I know it does nothing but hinder my own life to just dwell on the past, and I don't really dwell anymore. But like the headline of this entry said, I'm being reflective, and I have a lot on my mind. I suppose writing all this stuff down, something I have never done, could help me in breaking some of my habits that get in my way. I have a lot of bad habits that stem from my past battles with depression that linger today and get me in trouble.

I think one thing that I need to stop doing is thinking so much L O O O O L irony, (read the sentence again). What I mean is that I keep thinking and don't do. So I end up thinking, and psyching myself out, and don't do anything. One thing I forgot to list in my regrets is letting my friendship with a good friend of mine from highschool die. He was a true friend who I think was going through a lot more shit than he let me know and after our friendship dwindled, he contacted me, but I gave him the cold shoulder, I really, really regret that. Hey maybe he'll do a google search for his name someday, an in case he does I just want to say Ryan Gobolos I am sorry.

I wonder if anyone I went to highschool with has actually become successful. Back when I was younger, I never would have though that I would have ended up the way I am now. I turn 23 in September and honestly, I've been very inert in my life for the past 5 years. I just feel... lost. Though I am starting to finally find my way. I've been so busy looking at the past, that my future has been so vague and blurry. I think that's one problem I have, I keep looking back, when I should be looking forward. When I look to my future I see only a few dreams, dreams which I have to turn into goals and that scares the shit out of me. Being so afraid of failure actually turns into being afraid of success. I won't be able to do it alone though. Call me arrogant, or deluded, but I know I'm capable of great things, I won't change the world, nor do I wish to do so, but I can get things done, and in a big way, and I want to. But I need good support, I can't do it alone. No one can do great things alone.

It's weird, but I don't think I've had a bunch of friends over to just hang out and have fun for years, and that really kills me. I'm one of those people that likes to have all his friends become friends so we can all enjoy each other's company and have fun, and even work together to get things done much faster and better than if we did it alone. But just about all my friendships have deteriorated into that comfortable "buddy" zone, and many if not all of my friends in Vancouver have left the building. Man, that's just heart breaking. I don't have a single good friend in Vancouver right now. The best thing is how I am really bad at making friends in the first place. I don't want buddies, I want someone I can call a friend. I take friendship really seriously, and I have to be honest about something. My friends online, I don't think we'll ever become real friends if we are always in contact through online means alone, and again that breaks my heart. The worst is how even our online contact has been less and less over the past year. College will do that to people I suppose, and maybe I just need to move on and accept that they are moving on and meeting new people and making new friends. It hurts, but I don't know. Do I desire a real friendship with these guys? Yes, very much so. In fact I know that if we ever had a chance to be near each other, the friendships would just blossom. It has happened to me once, it can happen again, I really hope it will.

I let my past bother me too much without learning from it. Then again, I have learned from it, I just don't put it into action. I know my mother and father have been wanting to talk to me lately and I have not called them, yet another bullshit habit of mine. Putting things off, and off, and off, until either I do what needs to be done, or I suffer grave consequences. What the hell is that? Jeez man, that's just self destructive.

I'm going out to have an extremely late dinner with my brother now, it's 4:28am, don't be surprised if the tone of this entry suddenly shifts to something different when I get back. Or maybe I'll just post it when I get back and continue my thoughts tomorrow, we'll see.

Ok wow, it's 6:23am, which means ZzzzzZZZzzzZZZZZ

P.S. Those are my initials

P.P.S. I'll write more later

current mood: pensive

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Thursday, March 27th, 2003
10:07 pm - I have a livejournal wtf : (
Wow, I thought since updating a livejournal is so easy, that I would indeed update it a lot but obviously that is not the case so far. I promise to not promise to make an effort to do better!!

current mood: apathetic

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Sunday, March 9th, 2003
8:54 am - My eyes taste like burning
Seth: So what are you, Jacob? A faithless preacher? Or a mean motherfuckin' servant of God?
Jacob: I'm a mean m... m... servant of God.

Damn man, I am so tired right now. These all nighters have to stop!! Except they don't, but they do. Ok!! Not a hell of a lot has happened since my last update, but lets see if I can find something to talk about. Ah yes, I went over to Steve's house on Thursday afternoon, and it was pretty fun.

We just sat around playing video games, just like old times, and also like old times, I dominated most of the games we played. I guess after touting his horn as "the best Tekken player in B.C" Steve got a nice slice of humble pie after playing me in Tekken Tag Tournament (best Tekken game). I don't know how many team battle matches we had, but I didn't lose a single one. I've always been confident in my skills in Tekken, and still the only person that has ever given me a consistent challenge is my brother, and I'm quite proud to say that I am the one got him started on Tekken. After TTT we moved on to CvS2 which Steve didn't really have much of a chance at so we didn't really play much of that. Then we finished the afternoon off with some Soul Calibur. Neither of us ever really put much effort into SC since we both agree that it isn't a very balanced or tight fighting game. Don't get me wrong here, I love SC as much as the next guy, but as a serious fighter for pure competitiveness, it isn't even on the same playing field as Virtua Fighter, Tekken or King of Fighters. We did however enjoy ourselves while playing SC since it was more of a level playing field, and I don't think either one of us really dominated the other. And that was that, a simple short visit with an old friend which I hope to have more of. Steve was once a really good friend and I am pretty sure we will work towards rebuilding it to something similar and better, so I'm very happy about that.

I've rented a bunch of movies since last week so I'll give a quick run down of what I thought of them in no particular order, first up is:

1) Undercover Brother
Undercover Brother is a pretty decent movie and would be a great comedy if it wasn't for the totally inconsistent joke structure. I swear that the movie went in streaks of great jokes that make you laugh, followed by Chris Kattan who is just the ultimate not funny person ever, lather, rinse, repeat. I don't know who thinks Chris Kattan is a funny person but I sure would like to meet that person and shoot them in the head twice, because they deserve to die for supporting such a stupid person. However!!! All was not lost! Aside from the horrible Kattan, and hit and miss jokes, Undercover Brother was actually pretty good. If you have any sort of soft spot for good old fashioned 70s humor mixed in with some stereotypical black/white people humor; which by the way isn't so bad in this film trust me, then by all means rent the movie. Tv's very own Doogie Howser MD (c) TM (R) Inc, has a bit part so you know the movie isn't all bad.

Flik's Final Word: The movie is definitely worth a rental, and if you enjoy bonus features the collectors edition is jam packed, take a chance and rent the movie.

2) From Dusk Till Dawn
I haven't seen this movie in a long time and man, after seeing this movie again after so long I must say it is still the absolute kick ass smart aleck wise-cracking bad motherfucker it was when I first saw it. I rented the collectors edition which came with a nice behind the scenes documentary which was pretty interesting for the first 50 minutes or so after which it started to get a bit stale. However if you care about behind the scenes stuff in movies you'll enjoy this honest sneak peak in the weeks in the life of the making of From Dusk Till Dawn, damn that was long winded. Then of course on disc 2 you find the movie!!!

For the first time in my life I was able to watch this movie with surround sound and I must say that it actually did help me enjoy the movie even more. In case you haven't seen From Dusk Till Dawn I must ask you, are you fucking insane? This movie took a fresh off the set of ER George Clooney, combined him with the sheer wit and bad ass writing of Tarantino, and turned him into one of the most memorable and kick ass characters I've seen in an action/horror movie; no let me retract that statement, in a movie period. When I first saw this movie I was surprised that I actually liked the clean cut, nice guy Clooney, and of course since this movie was made he has become a huge star. But I don't think Clooney has ever owned a role as well has he has in this movie. Also I was very impressed with the way Harvey Keitel played his role as Jacob the mean motherfuckin' servant of God, in such a low key manner when anyone familiar with his work knows he can be very intense on the screen, it worked brilliantly as a contrast to Clooney's over the top almost manic performance of Seth.

From Dusk Till Dawn has all the things you love from a Tarantino film: excessive swearing, a couple of gun toting bad asses, excessive violence, twisted humor, scathing wit, amazing on screen chemistry of the cast, and of course, a dash of Mexican vampires thrown in to complete the package. This is one of my favorite movies of all time, and yet it has very little substance at all. It's just an extremely fun witty film that you will probably most enjoy with a couple of buddies while eating pizza and having a few drinks. Let's face it, any movie with a character named "Sex Machine", and Salma Hayek dancing seductively while in her underwear and wrapped in a giant python is bound for greatness.


Not much to say here, I feel pretty neutral about this film and honestly I don't care for it too much. It isn't horrible, but it isn't great either. And it is barely good. Also I am tired from being up all night so I don't want to write about it hee. I would have to say to skip over watching this movie, the plot is hokey and the acting talent that the movie has is wasted on a poor script, save your pennies boys and girls.

Bah, I am passing out. I will write some of my thoughts on the Frozen Throne unofficial beta test (aka. haxxed beta) later tonight once I've had a chance to go through it a bit more. Until then, adieu.

P.S. Those are my initials

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current mood: tired

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Monday, March 3rd, 2003
5:26 pm - The Random Properties of the Universe
Note: I wrote this update last night but was unable to access livejournal at the time.

"It's quiet..." "Yeah, a little too quiet." "Hey it's Raph!" "Yeah, a little too Raph!"

Wow, my second entry (update) in 2 days!! I suppose the ease in which to do this helps to keep me consistent in updating. At this rate, I'll have my webpage back up in about 10 days, I just can't see myself keeping a freaking livejournal for an extended period of time, so I'll use this as a stepping stone to lead me to great and grander things!!! Today I will conquer my livejournal, tomorrow the world!

Ok, this update will cover a few things, and here they are, in no particular order:

1) Dark Cloud 2-2:

I've had a chance to put in a lot more time with Dark Cloud 2 and my opinion of the game has only improved. If you didn't follow my advice and check out the review I linked to last time, I'll quickly go over the basic premise of the game. I never played the first Dark Cloud but from what I gather it was much like this game only not as fleshed out. Dark Cloud 2 is an action adventure rpg with major emphasis on dungeon exploration and city creation. As a lazy way of describing it, think of it as Ocarina of Time, combined with Sim City, with a dash of your favorite saturday morning cartoon mixed in for good measure. Make sense? Didn't think so.

So far, the game has been nothing short of fantastic. The graphical style is simply gorgeous and the game uses cel shading techniques to add a certain saturday morning cartoon look to the game as I briefly implied a second ago. Not only that, but the storyline seems like it was inspired by cartoons as well, and it makes for a very refreshing game on all fronts. The dungeons are all randomly generated which makes for very high replayablity; if you enjoy them in the first place. The geomancing (city creation) aspect of the game is very fleshed out and is beautifully integrated into the storyline and other gameplay aspects of the game.

At first I thought Dark Cloud 2 would end up becoming just another hack and slash level building dungeon crawler, but the sheer diversity of the gameplay makes it insanely fun to do even mundane things like level up. There is just so much customization in this game that you can literally spend hours just exploring and messing around with item creation and weapon modification, trust me, I am speaking of this first hand. Hmm, reading up on my little summary, I have noticed that I have not really said anything at all about the game, well ok I've said a little bit, but not much! Just play this game, it's a surprise and I love it. Yes!!

2) Road To Perdition:

I finally had a chance to see this movie and I must say that I wasn't entirely too thrilled with it. The basic premise of the movie was kind of weak, but that's not really what made me dislike it. I suppose it was just the lack of any "depth" to the characters and the plot as a whole. But then again I may have missed out on some stuff since I saw the movie at 3am after nearly passing out just an hour before.

I found the lack of dialogue hurt this movie a lot. Sam Mendes, the director of the filme seems to try to make up for the rather quiet atmosphere with what I feel are very well done visuals, however it just wasn't enough to keep me interested in the movie. Another problem I had with the film is the star power.

Tom Hanks, Jude Law, and Paul Newman are all great actors in their own right, and they can all carry a movie single handedly, so it comes as no suprise to me that having three names like that stuffed into one film actually hurts it. You see, for someone like Paul Newman to be relegated to a supporting role with as little screen time as he had, I have to wonder why they even casted him in the role in the first place? The same applies to Jude Law, he was in the movie for a total of like 15 minutes of screen time! I guess I felt like their talents were wasted when put in such small roles, and I couldn't shake that feeling. Overall, I wasn't too happy with this movie, but it wasn't nearly as bad as the next thing I want to talk about.

3) Way of the Gun:

Wow, ok... uh, hmmm. What can I say about this movie???? The movie started off great, the first scene of the movie was awesome. I will not spoil it, but if you have a twisted sense of humor like I do, you will love it! As for the rest of the movie... well I've never seen a movie start off with such promise, only to end up being complete turd at the end. I'm not going to waste any more time or space talking about this movie, and even though I had zero expectations going into it; I was still severely dissapointed.

4) One Hour Photo:

After seeing the wonderful Robin Williams Live on Broadway special, I was pretty enthusiastic about seeing One Hour Photo. I've always enjoyed seeing Williams in comedic roles, but I feel he shines brightest in dramatic roles ala Good Will Hunting or Deat Poets Society. I had heard great things about One Hour Photo so my hopes were pretty high. Luckily, the fates were smiling down on me because before I even decided to pick the movie up this morning, last night I hit the jackpot, well... sort of.

As I am sure you know, Blockbuster video has a guaranteed to be in, or the movie is free promotion. And well, last night while waiting in line to pay for Way of the Bomb someone ahead of me asked the clerk if they had any copies of One Hour Photo in back since the rack was empty. The clerk, being the genius that he is pronounced quite loudly, loud enough in fact for the rest of the lineup (about 12 people) to hear him tell the customer that they indeed did not have any copies of it left and would gladly give him a raincheck for the movie. This quickly prompted everyone else in the lineup, myself included, to ask if they had One Hour Photo in stock and thus receive a free rental for it. In any case, it was nice to get a free rental for a good movie.

Anyways, I was surprised by how much I enjoyed this movie. It was kind of weird to see Williams in such a role, but he played it perfectly. Not only was I creeped out by his rather subdued performance, but there was something about the way he carried himself that made me feel sorry for his character too. For the duration of the film, I forgot that I was watching Robin Williams and I would assume that is the goal of any serious actor. I really enjoyed the plot of the movie and especially enjoyed the visuals. The use of colors was just, well simply put, amazing. I don't like to give out any details of plot when I talk about games or movies so I will just say that for whatever its worth, One Hour Photo gets my full recommendation.

5) Deus Ex:

Londo: deus ex 2 will rock my fuck off
Londo: you know
Londo: when I talk about deus ex being great
Londo: it is not just like "it is really good game"
Londo: it is "OH MY GOD YES"

Hey guess what? I agree with him, I think Deus Ex is OH MY GOD YES.

Tomorrow I will continue the great job search of 2003, while trying to sneak in 3-5 hours of Trek viewing and Dark Cloud 2 playing as well. Also I am hoping to get a haxxed version of war3x. I hate how blizzard does their beta process, and well I am going to buy the full version anyways so I feel no remorse in being a pir8. Then again, I pirate a lot of software that I don't intend to buy so whatever!! Arrr matey, shiver me timbers.

I have to admit, as frustrated as I got with war3, I am really looking forward to the expansion pack. The new units, maps and heroes should add a lot of variety to what I thought was an excellent, but lacking game. I was once very good at StarCraft, I practiced to the point of being able to compete very competently with just about anyone, and even though I got on the bandwagon a little late, I feel that my skills at SC were well above par. I never really felt that drive to excell at war3, and I find it strange. War3 has a lot of things going for it, and it has a lot of improvements over SC too.

I think my biggest beef with the game is how easily it is to lose in war3. Sometimes if you lose the first battle, or even the first skirmish, you can be put so far behind in that you might as well just give up. I know that sounds like a cop out, but one thing I loved about SC was the ability to come back. I also loved the fast paced battles one could have in SC. War3 slowed things down with all the creeping stuff, and while that isn't neccessarily a bad thing, I feel it hurt the game since it didn't seem to be properly implemented.

Another thing I really disliked about war3, and this isn't really about the game per se as it is about the players, was the lack of variety of viable and used strategies. RJ and I played quite a bit of 2v2 back in the day, and it was really frustrating to lose to the same strategy over and over. Sure you can say "why didn't you counter it" and we tried! However, you cannot go into a game firmly fixed on countering any specific strategy, I prefer to be flexible and even if one does not agree, there were some terribly strong, imbalanced strategies that used to be abused. I don't really know what the state of the game is these days, but I can say with certainty that I am looking forward to the expansion pack.

I'm tired, well not really, but I do have to get up early tomorrow so I can hit the gym for the first time since last June. Hooray for war3 distracting me from working out last summer. Guess I'll write more later, hee.

P.S. Those are my initials

TTYL ^_~

current mood: blah

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Friday, February 28th, 2003
11:35 pm - I Love Ninjas
"May whatever God you believe in, have mercy on your soul" - Q

Ok yes, I have descended into the great abyss of live journal lameness. I plan on starting each entry with a quote, and I figured Q's line to Picard from "All Good Things..." would be quite appropriate considering how much I dislike livejournals. I figure this will be a temporary thing until I get off my lazy butt and resurrect my webpage, so hopefully this will help speed that process up. Until then, just bear with these short, and sometimes lengthy bs sessions.

The idea of being able to post my thoughts through a livejounal is actually kind of appealing now that I think about it. Since all I can do is write (and poorly at that) when I eventually do get my webpage back up it will just basically be stuff I write and uh, more stuff I write. But alas, this is still a livejournal, that makes it sux automatically doesn't it??????? Hee, guess I'll just have to get my page up faster than the speed of light. Ok, time to fill you in on aspects of my dull life!!!

The great job hunt of 2003

Hooray since I had to bend over regarding school this semester, I have had to look for a job, yes! I've only been seriously looking for a job for about 9 days now and after sending out roughly 23+ resumes in during those days, I have gotten approximately 0 replies. That wouldn't be discouraging at all if I wasn't applying for dumb entry level positions! Oh well, I don't really have much of a choice but to keep trying, but it is still stupid and retarded and dumb and lame and other stuff too. I'll keep you updated (even though you don't care) about how the job hunt of 2003 goes!!

Dark Cloud 2

DUDE, WHERE DID THIS GAME COME FROM??!? Ok I rented Dark Cloud 2 yesterday expecting a decent game based off of the review over at GameSpot and wtf, this game is a hell of a lot better than I thought it would be. I'll talk about it more after I've had more time to play it but so far all I can say is, rent this game at least, and buy it if you are azn.

The Demon Haunted World

I want to briefly discuss The Demon Haunted World written by Carl Sagan. I say briefly because a livejournal entry would never do justice to this masterpiece of writing. The Demon Haunted World is hands down the best book I have ever read in my entire life. I've been an admirer of Dr. Sagan ever since I first read Cosmos (twice now) and while Cosmos was more like a light textbook about astronomy, history, and even some physics, The Demon Haunted World is basically Dr. Sagan's viewpoint on science in general. If you didn't know, Dr. Sagan was one of the foremost astronomers of the modern age and in my opinion he could very well be the most influencial astronomer of all time.

But I digress, this book had such a huge impact on me that I feel it should be a mandatory read for all students in highschool. Dr. Sagan examines science in many ways and uses his extensive background in science to help explain in laymans terms such things as the scientific method, critical thinking (I mean real critical thinking, not the pseudo thinking a lot of university students like to do), pseudo science and how it hinders our potential, and he even talks a little bit about the political impact complacent and lazy thinking can have on society in the book too. Those are just a few highlights though, and of course the actual book goes into much more detail about those topics and many more as well. I suppose what I am trying to say is, do yourself a favor, read this book. Even if you are a close minded conservative thinking person, this book will shed some light onto just how wrong you are to be that way, even if you do try to ignore it. I could go on forever about the merits of this book, it was the first book that actually excited me to read it in years. I will eventually get around to doing a full review type essay on The Demon Haunted World, but for now I guess this crappy halfassed summary will have to do.

Ok this entry is getting long and that is wrong.

Hey, that rhymed.

I rule.

Random Thought of the Day: I rule

P.S. Those are my initials

TTYL ^_~

current mood: high

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